最近心情變得有點復雜。
到底什么才是中庸之道、什么才是理智、什么才叫適當...? No idea.

前兩天上文學翻譯時，聽到了Professor 說了句媽常說的一句- '不外如是'
感受蠻深的。

或許還是不夠成熟，見識有限，我從不太在某些方面apply  '不外如是' 這道理。
想一想，或許真的不需要那么著緊，或許由得它就算了。

天曉得大家到底在想些什么。
所謂的 'positioning' 最終又是否會有著深遠的影響呢?
到底要怎樣做...?

Few more days left till the restart of school.

jeez....i can't believe i am a year 3 student already.
honestly speaking, i REALLY don't want to face the 21 credits i'll be taking in the coming semester. who knows what is lying ahead?

perhaps... FYP might not be THAT bad after all... is it?  


PS.
He has an ill-tempered girldfriend, who has almost finished exploring the 'environment'; while she has an so-so-tempered and aggressive boyfriend, who has just started to exploration in the new environment.

With the offical start of 'another stage' just round the corner, she silently hopes that everything will be fine.

if change is to be embraced and if it is necessary and inevitable,  
i'd opt for a change that'd just kill all naive expectations out of a person.
after all, what is the point of clinging to an idea that'd just lead to endless disputes?

It's a heartache.

Its a heartache, nothing but a heartache
Hits you when its too late, hits you when you're down
Its a fool's game, nothing but a fool's game
Standing in the cold rain, feeling like a clown

Its a heartache, nothing but a heartache
Love him till your arms break, then he'll let you down
It ain't right with love to share
When you find he doesn't care for you
It aint wise to need someone as much as I depended on you.

rmb how the teachers used to say that keeping a journal is good?
that it'll help improve writing skills and help one in expressing oneself...?
now that i haven't been really updating my blog, nor have i been keeping a journal of my own for so long, i really feel the impact.

when i really want to find a word in 'summarizing' my feelings, i failed to do so.
so what does this show?

1. i've lost the ability in expressing myself in genuine words.
2. i don't have the kind of vocabulary bank this is sophisticated enough.
ok this point is probably the same as the above... which further proves another thing
3. i've lost the logic. (assuming that i used to have some)  

sadly speaking, what i really want to say is...
心酸.

Time to have a little update :)

i had a REALLY nice time in Spain
Madrid was marvelous and Barcelona was absolutely stunning.
travel buddy: Justine



looking back at the days when we walked for around 10 hours a days just to tour around the city; the days when we walked with our HEAVY backpacks under the BIG BIG SUN; and the days we had simply ham and bread as our lunch...

haha. kinda tough, but definitely enjoyable. :)





Then there's the tough hours where we had to carry our god-for-saken-heavy-luggages up and down the Metro/ underground of the cities we visit... and the time when we had our backpacks opened by SB w/o knowing... and finally we arrive the college where we belong in Cambridge- Newnham College :)

On the day of arrival-
we got to knew some new fds from CUHK/PolyU.
so there's breakfast at 7:45am, lecture till 3:15pm,
dinner at 6:30 pm and evening lecture at 8pm.
life was nice and the professors are REAL COOL.
(if only CU could have more prof. like them...)

explored places around cambridge and we bumped into an unknown carnival @ the Parkside:)
and that's where i got stung by an unknown insect... /_\

 


Then... me and justine have been to london and join Jeremy @ Oxford last weekend.
it was definitely memorable to watch 'The Lion King' musical

Anyway... i bet this must have been the longest entry i've ever updated in the past 2 years...lol  looking forward to another weekend trip with Justine and Jeremy this Friday!